Shelby B

why is it...

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 04:46:22 GMT

that the people you dont like are always around.

and the people you do like are never there.

im really getting sick of our freeloaders.

one just needs to go away and the other needs to start coughing up money if he's gonna lounge around our apartment all day and eat our food

hokay so

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 21:21:12 GMT

so the Po-lice rained on our parade the other night. somebody called a noise complaint on us. and took trevor's bong, but thats his fault because he was stupid enough to leave in on the coffee table. and im just thankful that mel and i didnt get in trouble for it. i dont think the security officer reported us to management. he also told us to be careful about who we let come over. speaking of which. i already had one friend ask if he could get a copy of the key. HELL NO! i love you but no way. and another thing MY apartment is not your party place.

dont you dare call me at 9 in the morning on a saturday after you know i passed out the night before, and expect me to get out of bed come downstairs and let you in. no fekkin way. my apartment i dont have to let you hang out here i dont even have to let you inside.

meh people are pissing me off. and im only going to get more stressed out once school and my other job start. and im totally cool not seeing anyone. if they want to see me they can come to meduring hours that are ok with me. oh and i hope tiffany doesnt schedule me and mel for 8 am classes because erica is probably going to schedule us to close taco bueno every night. and we dont close until 1 am...ane there is still homework.

i feel so...

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 20:57:11 GMT

unwanted.

maybe its because im a pothead, a drunk and a whore.

oh dont forget friendstealer....because im one of those too.

Friends

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 06:56:28 GMT

so ive been having issues with stuff lately and i havent been able to talk to anyone because i havent been able to figure out what is bothering me. but i turned down a ride home and walked. i needed some uninterrupted time to think.

my dad pointed out a several years ago that my friendships dont have walls. ive had friends of every size, shape and color. thats kinda the way my friends are here. there's about 21 of us. and we come from pretty much every background you could imagine. and last semester we had the BEST time. but i guess im really getting to know everyone...and i dont think i like who they are. and i think thats whats been bothering me.

i have found a best friend tho. and that makes me happy.

but besides that my friends are being really sucky. they have been all semester. It all started with that facebook group. i realized how superficial they all are. someone can be good enough to hang out with us...but they arent good enough to be in our facebook group. then they got mad at me for caring about people's feelings. and no one would talk to me for about a week. and it sucked. then i have a friend who tells me if i need to talk that she's here for me. so i do talk to her... but the friends who werent mad at me came to my rescue and the same friend i was talking to called me out for only hanging out with my rescuers. WTF? couldnt she see that that was the last thing i needed? its totally impossible with a group of 20 people to hang out with everyone all the time. geez.

hokay so. you can divide my friends pretty much by the side of campus they live on. with some exceptions. the east side...and the village. or the druggies and the judgemental assholes. thats more appropriate. the judgemental assholes would be the one'swho gave me crap about the facebook group. but because i had one drink...im a drunk. because i took trevor to buy weed...im a pothead. and because i stayed to talk to weston one day...im fooling around with him. thanks guys. thanks. honestly. i am still Shelby Nicole Bottomly. i have not changed. i told mom about the pothead thing. and she was like well if they think that then i guess they arent really your friends...i think she was right. melissa, trevor and david all smoke weed. but trevor does the most. and everyone knows. and they judge him so hardcore for it. like there's nothing more to him than being a pothead. they do this to several people in the group. people they never bothered to get to know. people i bothered to get to know and befriend. and it hurts. because they didnt even give them a chance.

why should i want to be around people like that. people who get up and leave the room everytime i get back. so i choose not to be. before i stayed at village because thats where my classes ended...on that side of campus. now i go there to keep from having to go back to my room. im at the point where i keep a bag of stuff in my car in the event i stay at village that night. so my lovely roomate has taken to the practice of "renting" out my bed. she had the gall to call me friday night and ask if i was going to sleep in my bed. and she needed to know as soon as possible. WTF. its my bed! that i pay for. not my parents...me! and its not a one time thing. katie sleeps in my bed ALL the time! and she usually tells me about it after. oh i slept in your bed is that ok? well i cant do anything about it now can i?

maybe its just the fact that i want to get off campus. and the fact that i know i wont have issues living with melissa. or maybe its the fact that im sleep deprived and probably PMSing. who knows.

i feel better. not really.

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 00:43:15 GMT

ok so if you ever feel the need to tell me something really important. dont tell me you have to tell but that youre going to tell me at a later date. it drives me crazy.

on a lighter note. i think i have a best friend again.
i think i have 2.

one is my future roomate. we're perfect for each other. she's awesome. except she smokes. but she's quiting soon. the other is a really awesome guy. and im not really sure how i feel about him right now. im uber confused. but we'll wait until thanksgiving on that one when he's ready to tell me whatever it is he needs to tell me.

ok the end.
i miss you guys

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 03:02:16 GMT

so i had a really sucky day today.

my friends have been complete assholes the last couple days. and over what? a facebook group. but wil anyone come to me and tell me they have a problem with the way i run the group? nope. then they all leave the group in some kind of protest. even thought i fixed everything. and did everything they asked.

so yeah i came back to my room and cried.
and then i lost my id.
so i couldnt go play with the kids in lab today.

then i got in trouble because melissa, david and josh came to save me. "you always hang out with them...blahblah" i thought whitney was there to help me. not hurt me. at least she was last night. guess not.

but i pretty much take back my last post. although i really wish i had a straight guy. i would trade my guys for anything. david and josh would be there for me anytime any day. and david probably loves me more than any person i know outside my family. and my new friend matt is so adorable. ive known him less than 2 weeks and i already feel like i could talk to him about almost anything.

and of course dustin. i love you. and someday when i have money i will come visit you in new york. and you can make me cultured. i miss you so much!

why oh why?...

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 22:25:05 GMT

must all the guys im good friends with be gay? i love them to death but i really need some awesome straight guys! like canada...but he's a pimp...so no. but im trying to figure out who id rather take to formal. and right now im leaning toward josh. he's such a sweet guy and he smells soo good. chris is lucky to have him. but yeah. i love how i randomly get depressed about how i dont have a boyfriend. it annoys me. maybe its because of our sleepover extravaganza. yeah ive only slept in my bed twice since school started. but thats because i slept in caroline's bed when she was gone. and so far if spent the entire weekend sleeping on ashley's floor.

but yeah. thats all.

um so yeah.

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 05:52:56 GMT

tonight was pretty interesting. fun. but interesting.

i learned a lot about everyone. and its mostly stuff id rather not know. i was one of the only people who didnt drink or smoke. they played i've never and it got pretty disgusting. they ordered a keg. and we had the party at work. the first staff party we've actually had out by the pool. and of course being in the pool with a bunch of drunk people can get pretty interesting. especially when you mix it with jumping off lifegaurd stands and throwing plastic chairs in the pool. but i must say drunk people are hilarious.

i will say i felt left out. i could have joined in anytime. seeing as people younger than me were partaking in the festivities. but something holds me back. something has always held me back when i go to parties. not that ive been to many, but still. i just cant be a rebel. im always gonna be the girl who doesnt drink, the girl that doesnt cuss. and it starting to get to me that i cant have guiltless fun like everyone else.

and honestly i dont understand why im so freaking naive when it comes to reading people. it irks me.

ok that was my rant for the month. im getting better i guess. or maybe im just holding it all inside...who knows.

brian wrote it

Fri, 26 May 2006 05:00:26 GMT

stupid is a stupid does, a man in love is symptomatic of...
he buys her flowers, walks her home, stays up all night with her on the phone...
shops with her and holds her purse, spends all day writing this verse...
in hopes of the bliss of the first kiss....
stupid is a stupid does, a man in love is innocent of

i can say what i want because my college friends dont know i have this...

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 02:09:07 GMT

me and schweeney

kevin me david

me and david

omg kevin's party was so fun. im really glad i went. i didnt drink but nobody knew because i walked around with my cup of water. lots of fun following schweeney around because she's so funny when she's drunk. I know what the problem is. what? gravity. so it was my first college party. and i made out with my friend david. but i cant be happy about it because it has the potential to ruin a friendship which is really dumb and i hate drama and people getting hurt over silly stuff. but yeah. now im home so maybe things will cool down. and hopefully i wont kill any sisters while im here.

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 21:13:26 GMT

um so i think i quit livejournal too. it seems to be the thing to do. ill be on myspace if you need me. well at least until i break down and get a xanga. lol.

peace out

spring break

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 03:32:26 GMT

so i was all bummed about not having anything to do over spring break. then i talked to mez, and then to my parents and they are gonna let me go up to dallas for a couple days. so i was all excited about that because that means i could also go see whitney and kevin. maybe brian, who knows. but yeah it kinda turned into an independence thing. and then jenny said that they should let me go i am in college after all.
plus there wont be anyhting to do here. at least not during the day. besides seeing people who are at school all day. and then seeing the girls. im already scheduled to go with jenny to get the girl's portrait made on friday and then seeing my pals from the CC class of 07.

but then mom is all like. "if you go to dallas can i come with you?" what do you say to that? i cant tell her no. she wanted to go and see my grandma like 3 weeks ago but coudnt because of the bad weather in dallas. its been a year since my grandpa passed away and i know its important to her. and i would be cool to hang out with her like we did thanksgiving before last. which was really cool.

but this is about independence!
plus i could always have an indepence trip over the summer. on weekends anyway. in between working and taking classes. grr.

so i pretty much love how everybody has quit livejournal.

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 23:40:19 GMT

i love this kid!

karoake and friends!

Gamma Kappa Omega !

the tribe after breaking into jon's car

uh so i didnt get into houston until after 5 last night. we left nac late thanks to me hanging out with david in the lab. im already in friend withdrawal. i babysat last night. we watched the muppets, put the triplets down the watched emperor's new groove and the jungle book. then jenny and lee got home. i dotn think i could have sta through another movie. my neighbors got a great dane...kitty. lol. she ate a pack of cigarettes yesterday. i showed my mom sam's paddle and she broke it! as if it wasnt already in 3 pieces now it in 4!
got woken up at 11. grr. but the neighbors were making a lot of noise. passed up the chance to go to the pet store and missed out on seeing lions. woah! yeah and ive pretty much been a bum all day aside from helping dad put up blinds.

so um thats all

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 18:15:48 GMT

SPRING BREAK!!!!

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 04:04:56 GMT

me and the guys

OMG I JUST GOT HIT BY AN EFFING CAR ( a re-enactment)

Karaoke

lol he really is handicapped. he has the plates and sticker.

i heart college

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 19:29:32 GMT

50 THINGS ADMISSIONS NEVER TOLD YOU ABOUT COLLEGE
1. Quarters are gold.
2. Two meals per day is the standard.
3. Road trip whenever possible.
4. Going to the mailbox was never an ego booster/breaker before.
5. You will begin to nap again.
6. Your bookstore bill will almost equal tuition.
7. Squirt guns = Stress relief.
8. Instant messenger becomes an addiction.
9. E-mail becomes your second language.
10. College students throw paper airplanes too.
11. You never realized that so many people were smarter than you.
12. College football is the coolest thing on the planet.
13. Western Europe could be wiped out by a horrible plague and you wouldn't know, but you can recite last week's re-run of The Simpsons verbatim.
14. Cartoons are for all ages, especially Scooby Doo.
15. Disney movies are more than just classics.
16. You will never rent more movies in your life.
17. No one is too old for video games.
18. Procrastination is an art form.
19. SNOOD is more addicting than pot.
20. Thanks to Aimster/Kazaa/Morpheus, you will never listen to one of your CDs ever again.
21. It never sucked so much to get sick.
22. The health service nurses are there because they couldn't make it at a real hospital. Never, don't ever forget that.
23. Care packages are right up there with birthdays.
24. Campus is only clean for Family Weekend and Freshman Orientation.
25. Nothing you want to register for will be open.
26. Classes... the later the better.
27. You are no longer thankful that the fire alarms are here to protect you.
28. Jeans may be worn as many times as the wearer desires.
29. The only time to dress up is when your jeans are dirty.
30. Showers become less important; sleep becomes more important.
31. Asleep by 2:30 am is an early night.
32. Creativity in the dining halls is key...
33. The freshman 15 is NOT a myth!!! (Or how about freshman 20.)
34. If it's snowing out, the only reason you will leave your room is for food.
35. Dishes smell after days of piling up.
36. Cereal makes a meal any time of the day.
37. You will eat anywhere that is a buffet.
38. You will eat anything that is free.
39.New additions to food groups: ramen and pizza.
40. Stealing from the dining hall will become second nature.
41. ATM's are the devils advocate. ATM= Another Twenty Missing.
42. Keys have never been so important, yet you seem to lose them or lock yourself out of the room even more.
43. Duct tape heals all wounds.
44. If they say you can't have it in your dorm, they are just kidding.
45. You will come to hate hallways/elevators with a passion.
46. Those ugly cinder blocks are not sound proof.
47. Pictures, posters, emails or anything else to cover the ugly cell we live in will be transformed into wallpaper.
48. Everyone is only nice for the first week. After that, no matter how nice you are, some people just won't smile back. Get used to it.
49. You are never alone!
50. You realize college is the ideal lifestyle, except for those pesky classes

TOP 10 REASONS THAT COLLEGE IS LIKE PRESCHOOL
10. You cry for your mother.
9. You cross the street without looking for cars.
8. Snack time is a necessity.
7. You bundle up for the outdoors without caring what you look like (because everyone else looks as stupid as you do).
6. You stay at home and play games with your friends.
5. You wear your backpack on both shoulders.
4. You wear big mittens.
3. Playing in the snow is a legitimate activity.
2. You take naps.
1. You look forward to grilled cheese sandwiches.
* you play outside until the sun goes down. and even after that sometimes.

YOU KNOW YOU'VE BEEN IN COLLEGE TOO LONG WHEN...
*You actually like doing laundry at home.
*Two miles is not too far to walk for a party.
*You'd rather clean than study.
*"Oh shit how did it get so late!" comes out of your mouth at least once a night.
*Mom's Meatloaf and potatoes become something you desire, not avoid.
*Half the time you don't wake up in your own bed and it seems normal.
*You schedule your classes around sleep habits and soap operas.
*You know the pizza boy by name.
*You go to sleep when it's light and get up when it's dark.
*You live for getting mail.
*Looking out the window is a form of entertainment.
*Prank phone calls become funny again.
*You start thinking and sounding like your roommate.
*Blacklights and highlighters are the coolest things on earth.
*Rearranging your room is your favorite pastime.
*Wal-mart is the coolest store.
*The weekend lasts from Thursday to Sunday.

BEFORE I CAME TO COLLEGE, I WISH I HAD KNOWN...
*That it didn't matter how late I scheduled my first class, I'd still sleep through it.
*That I could change so much and barely realize it.
*That you can love a lot of people in a lot of different ways.
*No matter how 'cool' you were in highschool, no one here cares.
*That if you wear polyester everyone will ask why you are so dressed up.
*That every clock on campus shows a different time.
*That if you were smart in high school, so what? It doesn't matter here.
*That I would go to a party the night before a final.
*That Chem Labs/Architecture studios take up more time than all my other classes put together.
*That you can know everything and fail a test.
*That you can know nothing and ace a test.
*That I could get used to almost anything found out about my roommate.
*That most of my education would be obtained outside of class.
*That friendship is more than getting drunk together.
*That I would be one of those people that my parents warned me about.
*That Sunday is a figment of the world's imagination.
*That Psychology is really Biology. That Biology is really Chemistry, that Chemistry is really Physics and that Physics is really Math.
*That my parents would become so much smarter in the last few years.
*That it's possible to be alone even when you are surrounded by friends.
*That friends are what makes this place worthwhile! Don't be dismayed at good-byes, a farewell is necessary before we can meet again, and meeting again, after moments or a lifetime , is certain for those who are friends.

lol this is awesome. my friends rock.

yes we are breaking into a car

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 05:23:38 GMT

i heart my friends

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 19:53:54 GMT

how are you supposed to go on living while knowing that one day you won't know who your family is. knowing how tough it is to live with a grandparent with alzheimers and then knowing that your father most likely has it too. and he's passed it onto you. how are you supposed to handle it?

how?

haha i heart this song

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 04:45:58 GMT

Bonito, todo me parece bonito
Bonita mañana
bonito lugar
bonita la cama
qué bien se ve el mar
bonito es el día
y acaba de empezar bonita la vida
respira, respira, respira

El teléfono suena, mi pana se queja
la cosa va mal, la vida le pesa
que vivir así ya no le interesa
que seguir así no vale la pena
se perdió el amor, se acabó la fiesta
ya no anda el motor que empuja la tierra
la vida es un chiste con triste final
el futuro no existe pero yo le digo...

Bonito todo me parece bonito

Bonita la paz, bonita la vida
bonito volver a nacer cada día
bonita la verdad cuando no suena a mentira
bonita la amistad, bonita la risa
bonita la gente cuando hay calidad
bonita la gente que no se arrepiente
que gana y que pierde, que habla y no miente
bonita la gente por eso yo digo...

Bonito, todo me parece bonito

Qué bonito que te va cuando te va bonito,
qué bonito que te va

Bonito, todo me parece bonito
La mar la mañana, la casa, la sombra,
la tierra, la paz y la vida que pasa.
Bonito, todo me parece bonito.
Tu calma, tu salsa, la mancha en la
espalda, tu cara, tus ganas el fin de semana

Bonita la gente que viene y que va
bonita la gente que no se detiene
bonita la gente que no tiene edad
que escucha, que entiende, que tiene y que da

Bonito Portet, bonito Peret
bonita la rumba, bonito José
bonita la brisa que no tiene prisa
bonito este día, respira, respira
Bonita la gente cuando es de verdad
Bonita la gente que es diferente
Que tiembla, que siente
Que vive el presente
bonita la gente que estuvo y no está.

Bonito, todo me parece bonito.

Qué bonito que te va cuando te va bonito,
qué bonito que te va.
Qué bonito que se está cuando se está
bonito qué bonito que se está.

Bonito, todo me parece bonito

tough kids use detergent.

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 05:46:10 GMT

i dont believe ive ever had so much fun in one weekend. i have the bestest friends ever.

friday. saw rent. i went to walmart. played in the park. played in the cemetary. jk we just walked around. hastings. rented emily rose and red eye. watched emilt rose. then caroline and i watched red eye. went to sleep but only afetr 3...

saturday. slept late. laundry. whitney's. missing dinner in the UC. going to wendy's. then going to taco bell with greg and getting his order wrong. and just sitting there for 45 minutes. back to the room. watched scary movie 3 afetr greg walked back to his room to get it. red eye. whitney spent the night because she forgot her id.

sunday. slept late again. didnt go to lufkin because the roads were icy and we wouldnt be back in time for my pledge meeting. spent the day with whitney. studied my greek letters, read a child called it, and colored pictures. went to the meeting and talked with kaitlin. there's a new pledge. and she did not make a good first impression. dinner at cici's after no one came to pick me up... brrr its freaking coooold outside. cici's with the girls, kevin and drew. then desperate housewives and grey's anatomy with everybody and greg.

obviously caroline and i have pissed off somebody on the 10th floor. they have now twice come to bang on our door. the twins ran out like they were going to kick some butt.

so yeah this weekend has been fun.

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 06:14:33 GMT

so for like once in my life i somewhat feel confident about an english paper. it makes me feel even more special that i didnt stay up until 3 the night before it was due writing it. i officially finished at 11:30. haha. no really i was done writing the paper at like 5 something, i started at 12:30. but i pretty much finished at 5 something then i braved walmart to go find a card, and then mal the card, so please no one blow up the mail box in front of walmart because it has my insurance that my parents will pay me back for books, a card for genevieve and ayden and a letter to my bestest friend forever my 4 year old naieghbor. haha. so then i watched the incredibles with whitney, ashley anna and david. we pretty much took over the griffth lounge. we did sit through 2 programs from the RAs though. we pretty much made their days. i started editing my paper during the movie almost finished but then got bored so i stopped. im so A.D.D. went up to whitneys room but in the process of leaving the first floor i managed to get drenched in david's cup of chicken E tea. i told whitney it was like being in a wet tshirt contest gone wrong. i did have on my hoodie and besides the shirt i was wearing was brown anyway. we had dinner and used my grandpa gum to make ourselves grills. i failed miserably. im so white. but then i left and finsished revsing my paper and then made the corrections and the caroline read it and we stole our works cited off the internet, and now im pretty much not wanting to do my math homework or ever go to that class again. my professor is retarded. i want roy joe harris back. he may have the deep eats texas accent and be obsessed with big foot and the dallas cowboys but his class was fun and i made an A. so yeah.

oh. happy valentines day everyone!

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 06:51:07 GMT

uh so this weekend being alone was supposed to enable me to write my english paper more freely. but mostly ive just slept and watched tv. im such a bum i didnt even go to class friday. and i skipped math the day before. just shows i like sleep better. it poured like crazy yesterday and laurie and caroline had to turn around before they got to lufkin. but they finally got home safe, so did ash. i think i woke up at 8 today. and then i went back to sleep for.... 5 more hours. haha. so mom hasnt made another comment about them money thing. she actually hasnt talked to me much. i went and saw SAW II last night for GKO but i didnt see any of the girls there so i dont know if i get credit or not. i emailed leigh so we'll see how it goes. we were supposed to have trash pickup today for our 2 miles of highway but leigh didnt email me what time to show up at the commuter lot. plus i was sleeping anyway. so ive basically wasted the last 11 almost 12 hours of my life. but i fully intend on at least re-reading and taking notes on the lottery before i go to bed. ill write the paper tomorrow when i get up. then i can do other stuff. ash said she would look over it for me. i think i've kinda figured out how Profesor House grades. haha just after 2 daily assignments. but i did bring my grade up by 20 points from the firsst one. yes kids you too can make A's by locking yourself up in the library after being rudely awoken from a nap by a firedrill. that will be my favorite part of moving off campus. lack of firedrills. so i sent in my application to Phi Eta Sigma, i just need to send them the $30 dues before spring break and im pretty much a member for life. dont even have to go to any meetings. dad might come up to see the induction ceremony. their finally proud. but i havent needed that satisfaction before so why start caring about it now. so ill get inducted into Phi Eta Sigma and GKO in the same week i think. i have my first quiz tomorrow. i havent studied so thats another thing to add to my list. and grey's anatomy! we had a party last week. we sat through the superbowl just for grey's anatomy and then we were left with a "to be continued" goodness. well i guess i better finish reading.

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 20:22:26 GMT

so i've pretty much decided to make several major changes in my life. im just not sure that i like where im headed at the moment. so im deciding to be proactive. i applied for a job in the college of education as a student assistant. thomas and sara's wedding is this summer and i still wanna keep up my end of the deal mom and i made at thanksgiving.

so yeah now i have to go write my english paper.

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 04:34:06 GMT

no one understands so they just need to shut up.

i was set, i had enough money to last the semester. it was going to work. they said they would pay me back. they screwed me over. now i barely have $100 bucks. and apparently its my fault.

i've got a case of the monday's

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 05:04:52 GMT

bah. im so frustrated with life right now.

so much to do and i dont feel like doing any of it. can i take a semester of or something. i cant do anything because i have no money and my parents wont cough up the $400 they owe me. grr.

i have to write an english paper and it has to be good, by next tuesday without waiting until the last minute. i have a biology test wednesday that i have yet to start studying for. i have an assignment for my nutrition class that i havent even looked at. oh and i have to read all the crappy stories for english too.
then tomorrow im going to the boys and girls club for GKO. then wednesday night theyre throwing a speghetti dinner for me and kaitlin again with GKO. friday night i have to go sit through saw 2 again. for GKO.but then nothing next week.

i love how life does that to you. it throws itself at you all at one time. then gives you a break to relax when really you shoulf be getting ahead instaed of relaxing and then life is upon you again. can anyone explain that to me?

bah.